Slowly walked to the back of the mountain, the bell and drum sound of Zhenjue Temple had already reached our ears from spring, and a smoke had just penetrated the roof from the kitchen behind the temple and looked at the temple, so Qian put the bundle of firewood and said to me.
They’re cooking lunch, and it’s not far from dinner. I’d better take you to the temple first
When we arrived at the temple, many of my grandmother’s companions, the Buddhist mother-in-law, opened their eyes wide and were amazed. After Qian left, they asked me about this adventure. I also felt a sense of pride. Later, when I sat at the table for dinner, an old woman asked me what you were going to do when you were older, and I answered her without hesitation that I was willing to cut wood.
The tea shop and pub in my hometown are still popular and lively, and this little hero in the tea shop and pub took me to the mountain for the first time to take an adventure, but when there was a flood in a year, Qian got drunk and drowned, and their families were scattered one by one. Now they have not given birth to their cowshed-like house, which has changed two or three owners, and it is tide wait for no man to rise and fall, and it is absolutely common for Qian to die. At the same time, it also brought my dreams and my youth.
lonely
The lotus leaves and lotus flowers in the inner and outer lakes have reached the early stage of withering, and the willow shadows on the banks have faded. Just one afternoon in autumn and July, I brought my luggage to Hangzhou.
Born in the dormitory and in the same class, the old students seem to be nationals of two countries who have transferred from Jiaxing to Hangzhou. Although the distance from home is nearly a hundred miles, the mental loneliness has deepened, so I have to turn my enthusiasm to stick to my own barriers.
At that time, although English was also an important subject in the classroom, it was still difficult to teach Chinese except for China, which was still the biggest standard for different grades. After several articles, Mr. Wang, a veteran of Tongcheng School, paid attention to me. Nearly a month after entering the school, my classmates actually gave me a nickname of monster. In their eyes, it seems that this stupid person who doesn’t dress well and speak simply will not be able to say that he will be overwhelmed by his peers when he writes. Of course, he is a non-monster.
At last, Hangzhou is a provincial association, most of which are the brothers of officials in the luxurious and meaty countryside, so the clothes in the same class are beautiful, the flesh is fine and white, the manners are elegant, the manners are elegant and the manners are gentle, and I don’t know how much. What surprises me most is that each of them is always a little older than him. This kind of phenomenon is not to say that it is not as popular in Jiaxing House at that time, but it is by no means as common as Hangzhou House at that time. Instead of being regarded as shameful for women, several of them are deliberately pretending to be rich. This kind of situation is really angry. Of course, it is very obvious to show bad feelings to those who call fae colleagues. Even to those who are older, they always show hostility. As a result, the wider the name of my monster is, the higher the wall is.
Since I became a lonely person who didn’t join in the school, I was free from my feelings. Of course, my energy went to a road, so a few money saved from money became my only entertainment, and I bought old sources of living water.
At that time, the old shops in Hangzhou were all gathered in two right-angled streets of Plum Blossom Monument in Fengle Bridge. Every Sunday and holiday morning, I lay on my back and calculated. In this week, I could save money and buy the most economical books, so I could get a sense of happiness first. When I lingered in front of the store for a long time, I couldn’t get back to my dormitory for lunch. I had a bowl of noodles with mutton soup in my hand, and I felt very regretful at the same time. The comfort was a bowl of noodles with a few copper waves. The trance was about Columbus at that moment when I was reading it while eating noodles.
It really instructed me that the way to poetry is to stay in the Qing Dynasty, talk in the blue waves, talk in the blue waves, and write a poem with white fragrance. At least I always read every short story in the West Lake story twice, and then I performed all kinds of strange dramas. Although I didn’t appreciate their benefits very much at that time, I didn’t know how to read it, but the hazy aftertaste seemed to be when the weather in March was drunk for decades.
Since these books are ambiguous, don’t raise some, otherwise illegitimate children in Jiaxing have tried to be childish and full of five or seven-character poems one after another. When a red grid book is full, they are so excited that they hinder their sleep late.
Imitation is that life can express its desire, and it is as strong as eating and dressing. Young people want songs to be different from songs and poems, and the second step is to contribute anonymously to newspapers.
After sending a letter, I couldn’t sleep well that night. When I got up early the next morning, I sneaked into the newspaper reading room to read the newspaper. I didn’t send breakfast classes. It can be said that it is a kind of daily action. Where do I feel the taste on the tip of my tongue? Where is the lecture hall? I still want to listen to the lecture bell. I ran to the newspaper reading room like I was running for my life.
I remember that the first submission was an imitation of the five ancient newspapers of the Song Dynasty. It was the Zhejiang Gazette at that time. When I saw a string of words that had been stitched together and printed by the typographer, although it was anonymous, no one in the newspaper reading room would know who it was, but my heart was pounding my face, and the horse became scarlet, and my ears rang. My eyes shook like I was sitting in a boat. Although I read and read the string of words several times from the beginning to the end, I was still wondering that it was not my contribution. Run to the playground, jump around, come back, pick up the newspaper again, hold down your heart and read it again. This is reassuring, so Fang feels happy and wants to shout.
At that time, I had a lot of pseudonyms. It was not until two or three years later that I felt that I was 70% sure of the contribution that I honestly realized my real name. About the old newspaper collectors turned up the Zhejiang Gazette, Jiang Daily and Hai Shenzhou Daily more than 20 years ago, and I could always see many nonsense poems at that time. Now I can’t remember not only the old draft, but also the enthusiasm for forgetting to eat and sleep at that time. Of course, it can be said that it is a step forward, but the feeling of being old and depressed can really push down my tears.
In that year, in the winter of 1999, the eldest brother who studied in Japan returned to Beijing and was sent to the Ministry of Justice to walk into the army in the name of Xiaojingguan. The second brother also graduated before and after this, joined a garrison army under the Standard System and became a platoon leader.
One article and one martial art, these two sesame and mung bean official brothers have stirred up the audio-visual in our small county, but the family economy is a little better off, and I asked for the procedure, which led to an unexpected disconnection.
After living in the hall outside for a full year and publishing poems in various newspapers several times, I asked more questions than my contemporaries. My contemporaries felt that it was not necessary and unnecessary for them to read and die together step by step. By the time Xuantong graduated in 1991, a lot of brochures for recruiting freshmen had been put up on my desk, comparing and studying. I really wanted to finish reading them at one go.
As for Chinese, I can always cope with the subject. As I said before, it is the most important and also the most lacking one for me to learn English. Just study English and everything will be easy. This childish and ridiculous idea is the motivation for me to take the shortcut to the church outside the rules.
At the end of the Qing Dynasty, the Hangzhou Power Church School, the Anglican Church, the American Presbyterian Baptist Church and the Presbyterian Church just built a new school building in the beautiful landscape of Jianggan and renamed it "Big Mind, Simple Mind, Knowing the name of worshipping Big". Xiao Ran, a teenager, is the most glorious to enter the university, and there is nothing to expect. However, when I entered it, I was even more disappointed than reading to death in the provincial middle school.
Every morning, when I get up, I pray, eat and pray. At ordinary times, 9: 00 to 10: 00 is the most important service. At the end of the service, there is another prayer. The Bible is an important subject required every year. On Sunday afternoon, everyone has to do half-day worship except that he is seriously ill and can’t move. However, after the service, there is another prayer and bible study. I believe in God and force me to pray repeatedly. Everyone knows the facts. I ended up here.
After living in school for two months, a preacher of the Emancipation Evangelical announced that he had rebelled against the flag from an alternate pastor. Because of the headmaster, the chef was beaten by the chef, and the unbelievers were not allowed to eat.
After the school agitation happened, it ended in the same way. It was always a physical strike. When I dropped out of school, I came back to the alliance to resume classes, which was a few tough ones. I don’t know whether it was good or bad. In this agitation, I was also a tough one.
February 19, 1935
Outside the gale circle
Life changes often come from unpredictable places and we retreat from that church school halfway. We should all be burdened with Cain’s brand before we can be alive. However, in a baptist church in the city, we were greeted with great preferential treatment. In this course, the American principal not only has an open-minded attitude, but also has a very clever mind among foreign missionaries. If you want to find something bad about him, it is because others are improper to be the dean in his hands. A Shaoxing native is simply that kind of servile and flattering thing, and outsiders are arrogant and oppress the same typical foreign country.
However, the school spirit is not calm. There are different opinions in the study room and dormitory, and people are generally dissatisfied. Of course, it is the foreign dog.
Come to it.
Eat dog meat and watch.
Give him a good knock first.
Although there are many secret discussion strategies like this, no one dares to attack first. People are full of resentment. They can’t find a way, but they have to complain about some papers when they are writing. So, no matter what the topic is, every class’s literature class is always full of papers, and several of them are still less than five or six hundred words from the beginning to the end, but alas, they have to write one or two hundred words. Later, the old gentleman who changed Chinese couldn’t think about it, so he made a ban against reading and doing those deplorable articles after life.
At that time, this kind of lamentation tendency, this kind of injustice and resentment were oppressed, and people were crying and crying. It was really not a church school, and the public opinion outside the school was also like a ship swaying from foot to top in a big wave.
The foolish imperial court was countered by the plot of the poisonous woman in the West Palace. Although it wanted to reform the country, it had to go against the spell, knife and gun to kill the red-haired and blue-eyed ghosts. The British and French countries repeatedly attacked Jingu, Guangdong, and fell again and again, but the suffering people rose up to compete for the political flood, the Yang uprising, the two lakes and the Shandong twisting movement, the independence of the Hui and Miao people, and so on, all suggesting that the fate of the special government in the Qing Dynasty and the total collapse of the sunset in the isolated city were inevitable.